quadraphonic love

I found a health magazine with an interesting article about letting your dreams go.

Made think how many times I thought about abandoning some of my dreams due to motherhood. My dream of sitting on the front door stairs of my own brooklyn house on a spring day watching the kids run around while I enjoy iced coffee with my husband. I have had this dream ever since I visited NY in 2001. 40 acres and mule… we visited spike lee’s production co. I took a walk in the area. The sun was shinning in the afternoon. I looked at the old  houses and wished I lived there. We never got to see mr. lee. he was out of town, but his assistant, tall as the empire state, was very kind and said we could have an interview if came back on monday. We were leaving so we never got to meet him.

My dreams of being able to decipher and create music become a mere indulgence when there is babies to feed, dress and educate.

Dreams can be very frustating when the expectations are too high. I thought that what the person who wrote the article was pretty assertive. She pointed that as time goes by, we need to review them and updated them and make sure that we are being happy while achieving them. Many of us expect hapiness when we accomplish them and forget about the process. In my case signing up for classes, enjoying school (because I do) and getting decent grades along with being a good and low stress mom.

Yes, I might be letting go my dream of living in NY for now, but in exchange I will by my old house in phoenix; flip it, decorate it with antiques, graffittis by my fav artists, have a play room, music room and funky kitchen and build a studio in my big back yard where I can teach spanish, english, music to kids as well as having people take yoga classes with my sister that is about to get her cert in yoga instruction.